I’ve been quiet I know, but this one I can’t keep quiet about. See when The Most High God does something amazing in your life you can’t not share it with the world.
The past 3 weeks have been muy loco … super crazy. We have been in and out of hospital with our daughter because she has been waking up coughing and struggling to catch her breath. Over the 3 weeks we’ve been in hospital 4 times, been admitted twice. When you have 3 other little children, it’s not the most practical thing. But I know God got us through. The days started to get better, but the nights… honestly, I dreaded them. We were up nearly every hour for 3 weeks with her. In between that I breastfeed my son, so sleep has been non-existent and I am officially convinced that I am not meant to sleep anymore… I joke.
But last Thursday, 12 am I went upstairs and she started coughing again. I went into the room, but this time it was different. She was really gasping for air. I picked her up but she was still really struggling. Her eyes were wide, wide with fear and I knew something wasn’t right. She managed to say mum and I screamed at Joseph to call the ambulance and took her into my room. By time I got to the room her lips were turning blue and then she suddenly went limp. I started banging her chest and I remember screaming Jesus and then started giving her mouth to mouth. After blowing into her mouth a couple times she started coughing… and coughing was good for me because it meant she was still with me. As she coughed phlegm and foam came out so I just kept doing it. She started to turn over so I sat her up and pumped everything I could from the asthma pump into her. Then she cried…, you know when you are glad to hear your child cry. I was soooo glad to hear her cry.
By time the ambulance came she was sitting up, tired, but sitting up…. off to the hospital we went again.
What’s wrong with her you ask? I don’t know. The doctors don’t know. Some say asthma, some say a viral wheeze, some says they don’t know because she looks well in herself, everything else is fine, no temperature, no sickness… nothing.
So as you can imagine she’s staying in the room with us at night times now, but we couldn’t just bring her in, her sisters are in too… all camping on our bedroom floor on their mattresses. (fun times for them).
This morning she woke up and climbed into my bed. I asked her how her night was, same thing I ask each morning, and usually she responds… “fine”… but this morning she had a grin on her face. She said “Jesus came to me and healed me.”…. now I wanted to know more…. she continued and said “yes mummy. I was sleeping and the angels were next to me and then Jesus and God came up the stairs into the room and Jesus healed me”
I was smiling so much, I was so genuinely happy that my 4 year old had her own personal encounter with Jesus.
Why am I telling you this? Because sometimes it is easy to think that other people have life easy and it is OK for them. But it isn’t the case. I am struggling too, I have sleepless nights too, I cry too.
I thought my child was going to die!
But one thing I remembered was that the devil can’t touch me or my family without God’s say so. So he can try and break my faith, but not today…. as I said to my friend he needs to take a seat.
God didn’t promise we wouldn’t have hard days, trials, tribulations, sorrows… but He promised He would be with us through it all. He has already overcome!!!!
Stand from a place of victory.
Know that you have someone bigger, stronger and wiser fighting for you. It is OK to cry and give it to God… actually, that’s exactly what He wants. He says come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
Psalms 50: 15 says….
And call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me.
Today, mothers day, is me giving The Most High God ALL the glory He deserves. I am grateful for this trial and these 3 difficult weeks, because as a result people who have said they don’t believe in God have prayed for our daughter. My daughter at the age of 4 has had her own personal encounter with Christ. And God has strengthened my faith in Him, knowing and trusting His word, that He will never leave me nor forsake me Deuteronomy 31:6. No matter what I go through, no matter how long, painful and tiring the journey He is there with me… He is there with you!
So I share this with you today so you can have hope! Be encouraged. God has it all in control! Don’t stop praying!
Keep smiling, stay blessed
Triplet +1 Mama Smith